Today… This past week… This past month… This past year…
Doubt about my career. Where am I going with it? When will I secure a full-time job? Will I be able to balance it with life?
Doubt about my ability to be a good wife, daughter, sister and friend. Do I do as much for them as they do for me?
Doubt about my potential. Am I making the right decisions today that will get me where I want to be tomorrow? Am I even capable of doing the things I dream of?
Doubt about my blog. Do I write about interesting things? Where am I going with it?
Doubt about achieving my goals. Will I live up to others’ expectation? Will I live up to my own expectations?
I even doubt things that I have no possible way of testing.
For the sake of the blog, I wish I had a moral of the story or some silver lining to share. But, I don’t, because that’s sometimes how life goes.
Even through all this doubt, self-consciousness and fear, there is one thing I don’t question: How much I love and depend on Dan, my family and my friends. And, fortunately, even if everything else continues to fall apart and cause me pain, they are all I really need to be happy and keep going.
Today, I’m thankful for that.