In this post, “it” shall refer to my career. A few years ago, it could have easily referred to my eating habits. Before that, it could have referred to my love life.
Since graduation, I’ve felt aimless, unsuccessful and confused about what I want to do with my life. With my job. With the it that I always assumed would define me.
However, the thing is, I’ve realized that no one my age (or any age?) has all of it figured out. Maybe one it, but not all of it.
So what if I am still looking for the full-time job that will keep me engaged and satisfied? Sure, I thought I would be more on track eight months post-graduation. But, I didn’t think I would be married or living in a country house. Something’s gotta give, right?
This all sunk in this past weekend when I was back in Nebraska to visit friends and family. I was glad to be back, but I dreaded the inevitable “What are you up to these days” question. I’ve always prided myself on having it figured out. Now that I don’t, I’ll admit that I was ashamed.
Then I got to Nebraska and started catching up with friends. I quickly learned something: If they have their own it straightened out, then it’s likely that another it is up in the air… And I am so proud of them for that. I am thrilled that my friends are challenging themselves and refusing to settle.
Why should I treat myself different? Shouldn’t I take pride in the challenge rather than satisfaction in an easy job decently done?